I got my hearing aid this morning and now I can hear everything! As soon as the doctor placed it in my ear, I could hear papers crinkling, my keys clanking as I nervously played with them in my hands, the air blowing out of the cushion when the doctor sat back down on his stool, etc. When I left to go to my car across the street in the parking lot, I could hear cars far up the street approaching, the leaves blowing in the trees, and the birds chirping! Amazing! The best part is that I know I won't have to miss out on all of Button's coos and giggles or if she's crying, I'll actually know it! It is such a relief, that's for sure. I am so grateful for this technology.
As you can see from my photos, it’s not really all that noticeable. The straight-on view hardly shows a thing and I usually wear my long hair down, so you can’t really see it from the side, either. I pulled my hair back for the photo.
Well, our little blue house is now officially on the market. We’re kind of sad about this, as we love our home, our neighborhood, and our neighbors/friends. However, our house is just too small anymore and we need more room for Button!
We’re hoping to sell within a reasonable amount of time because we’d like to be in a new home before Button arrives. We’d especially like to begin work on a baby nursery. We’ve been working our butts off to get everything perfect for an open house on Tuesday, the 24th — the same day we go to the doctor to learn Button’s gender!
So, I haven't really been blogging much, in case you haven't noticed. The only reason we still have a blog is because Ju manages to actually post entries, unlike me!
I've had a hard time talking about the baby because it is hard for me to feel like this is all okay and I don't want to feel stupid later when something happens to the baby. I am getting over this because I am starting to see that we really are having a baby and not a medical disaster, which is exciting!
I became a very good fertility patient. I read everything, worked hard to understand what was going on, and talked with doctors endlessly. However, in the process I become very comfortable with the idea that I was unlikely to ever get/stay pregnant. Then, it happened...poof...no more infertility patient! I became a regular OB patient and while I get some special treatment, like a monthly ultrasound (and a doctor who discusses her sex toy purchases), it has been a hard transition to make.
I envy people for whom there is no difficulty getting pregnant because I suspect that they worry less, they know less, and enjoy things a little more. My worry is not helped by the fact that I have a strangely (but not dangerously) placed placenta, thus have been informed that I will not have much feeling/sensation until reatively late in the game (ie, when the kiddo is so big that strangers on the street notice movement).
At any rate, I am begining to relax a little and trying to see things as okay. I am really thrilled about the baby, and as we reach the half way mark things do look more and more ok.
We went to the doctor today, thinking we were having an ultrasound, and excited about the prospect of finding out the gender of our Button. We were disappointed to learn that we were not having a full ultrasound, but rather just a test to hear the heartbeat. R got to hear it, but it was uneventful for me, as I established in an earlier post that I do not hear well. I missed it entirely. Needless to say, I was especially disappointed.
We did have a good time chatting it up with our doctor about... sex toys. It was so random and funny. She was telling us about all the ones she'd seen on the internet as she was shopping for her own collection. It was a pretty damn interesting conversation! She is a riot.
Our next appointment -- the detailed ultrasound -- is in three weeks from now. At least then we'll actually get to learn the gender for sure and see everything well. We're both dying to know and R's mom is especially eager, as she's wanting to go shopping.
I don't much care one way or another if it's a boy or a girl. I'm just happy to have Button and hopefully s/he will be healthy. However, if it is a girl, I will be excited because there's a certain dress I've had my eye on! Ha.